I was doing so well and then I binged on pretzels and snack mix last night and I'm so pissed at myself and I want to kill myself and curl up in a ball and die. I felt so gross last night all I wanted to do was puke and I STILL can't muster up the courage to do it. And I hate myself for it. Why aren't I strong enough to purge? Why do I fear it so much?

Help me because I can't help myself. I keep fucking up I can't live like this