I just logged on to my first follower. <3 It makes me feel so good! Thank you:)

I woke up at 2:o0 PM today! I'm so confused by this because I literally slept half the day away. I remember waking up at 10:30 and saying "I'll sleep until noon", and then proceeded to sleep 4 more hours. I haven't eaten anything else today except dinner, but it really wasn't that much of a challenge because I woke up so late.

I was supposed to go down the shore on Saturday, but since this hurricane is coming in, we probably won't go until Monday. I'm also with my dad a lot over this weekend and I always eat a lot when I'm there because he has chips and cookies all the time for my sister. I always know I shouldn't but then I do anyway because their there and they're easy to get. I hate it. I hate how I have no self control.... I'm at my dads right now actually. Earlier, I was sitting on the couch in front of my sister, and I was getting up to go take a shower. I like twisted around to stretch before I got up and when I turned my head there was a big bowl of vanilla and chocolate with chocolate chunk ice cream right under my nose. It was my sisters dessert. I was kind of struck by how delicious it looked and wanted nothing more than to eat it. Then I got up. My dad was there and he said something like, "whats wrong?" because I guess I looked defeated after I saw the ice cream. So I said, "no, nothing, i just turned around to a big bowl of chocolate ice cream in my face." and he said "oh, sorry...you'll be able to eat ice cream soon enough.." and I just turned around and walked up the stairs. Once I got in the bathroom I started crying because I kept thinking, "no I won't. no, I won't." Because I won't be eating ice cream soon enough. At least not without guilt. Not without regret, and not without hating myself after.

~baby steps~

Intake:

Calories:

Dinner-
Claussen Pickle (what pickles are 0 calories?):5 cals

Morning Star (vegetarian) Lasagna:270 cals

Net:275 cals