Self Portrait

Self portrait

Age: 14
Height: 5’6
Weight: probably around 150 :(
Dress Size: not sure
Highest Weight: 190 lbs
Lowest Weight: from when? I was born at 7 lbs ;)
Goal Weight: short term: 130; long term: as low as I can go.
Favorite Diet Food: carrot sticks
Favorite Binge Food: chocolate and chips and everything in between
Favorite Exercise:treadmill. Badminton.
Favorite Thinspo: flat tummies
Where Do You Slip Up? When I'm alone
Does Anyone Know? no
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? As little as possible.
What Do You Think When You Look In The Mirror? Fat. Worthless.
Are You In A Relationship? No
Are You Depressed? Eh
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? No
Ever Been To A Psychologist? Yes
I AM:
[ ] anorexic
[ x] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[ x] hungry
[ ] thirsty
[ ] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x ] fasting/starving myself

PEOPLE:
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[x] have said I’m ugly
[x] have said I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos
I WISH:
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x ] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[ x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[ ] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[ x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I LOVE:
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[x] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE:
[ ]I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes
[x] I have many scars
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[ ] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[ ] I have/had braces
[ x] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles
FAMILY:
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents
[x] I’ve run away from home
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house
[] My biological parents are together
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old
[x] I want to have kids someday
[ ] I’ve had children
[ ] I’ve lost a child
[ ] I can’t have children
RELATIONSHIPS:
[x ] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship
[ ] I’m engaged
[ ] I’m married
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date
[ x] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper
[ x] I miss someone right now
[x] I have a fear of abandonment
[ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[x ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship
[ ] I’ve been ‘the other woman’
SEXUALITY:
[ x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[x] I am a cuddler
[ ] I’ve kissed in the rain
[ ] I’ve hugged a stranger
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

BAD TIMES:
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[ x] I regularly drink
[ ] I can’t swallow pills
[ ] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[x ] I shut others out when I’m upset
[ ] I take anti-depressants
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm
[ ] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me
[ ] I’m at my thinnest
[ ] I’m at my biggest
[ ] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x ] My weight affects my mood
[ ] I weigh myself daily
[ x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[ ] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[ ] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x ] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[x] I’ve fasted
[ ] I’ve taken diet pills
[ ] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged
[ x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[ x] I work out secretly
[ x] I work out daily
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve done:
[x] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[ ] Diet pills
[ ] Pain killers
[x ] Sleeping pills
[ ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Other

HABITS:
[ x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I count calories
[x] I’ve had negative intake days
[ x] I avoid food
[ ] I hate food
[x] I love food
[ ] I don’t want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[ ] Being thin is my top priority
[ ] I am in treatment
[x] I’m doing this for me
[ ] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself