9-11-11
Before I start this post, let me just pay respect to everyone that died on September 11.

        Yesterday was just a roller coaster ride of emotions. My intake was terrible, so I'm fucking pissed at myself for that... I need to let this all out, so sorry if this post is a rant.
So yesterday was kind of lazy, I swam out by the pool, and I ate more than I should have. Then O and our friend Ali invited me to bike to a restaurant with them for dinner. I agreed, but I only went for the bike ride, I wasn't planning on eating. We went to a chinese restaurant, and I LOVE chinese food sadly. I didn't order anything and they were like "WHY AREN'T YOU EATING?" and I was just like "I'm gonna eat when we get home." Then when their food came, they were like "Lilly have some! there's so much! dig in." So i kind of nibbled on their food a little. But then all this drama happened there because my other friend showed up and O and Ali hate her. So O and Ali are still pissed at me.
Then later I went to my other friend's house just for a little. Turns out yesterday she baked this nutella cheesecake thing. I'm so weak, I couldn't not try it. I'm so weak. After that I went home and I hung out with my other 3 friends and we went in the hot tub and it was okay. The one guy is my literal next door neighbor and he said he could drive me to school from now on, so that's a plus I guess.
They left at like 1, but after that I went on my computer on aim. Where my other long time really close friend decided to tell me how bad of a friend I was to him. I told him that I wasn't strong enough to handle this right now. It made me feel so shitty about myself, like I've already been feeling lately. I've been struggling, and now all these people are deciding to dump me. O, Ali, and my other friend all in one day. Some one tell me why this is happening to me. It makes me feel very alone and inadequate.

Well, today is a new day. I'm going to the gym as soon as someone that can drive wakes up. I said I was gonna take today off, but after yesterday's intake, there's no way I'm doing that.

Here's what I wore two days ago:

And here's what I wore yesterday.

       

I'll have a post later today with my outfit, and my intake for today.
It's harder on the weekends because there's much more freedom. All I can say is I hope today is better.

~baby steps~

Intake for 9-10-11 (Yesterday):
Calories:
Breakfast- Apple:95 cals
Lunch- Hummus:22 cals; Deli Flats:100 cals
Dinner- 1/8th a Broccoli Chicken:22 cals
Snacks(uhoh)- Almonds:21 cals; Chewy Bar:90 cals; Pretzels:110 cals; Babybel Cheese:140 cals;                              
Nutella Cheesecake:125 cals
Excersize:
Swimming,5 min:36 cals burnt
Biking,30 min:298 cals burnt
Net: 391 cals :(