Outfit for today:

Let today be a good one, please. Let me think of 160 pounds before I eat anything.

I wrote this in my journal last night:
9-14-11
I'm 160 pounds. A fat gross 160 pounds. I've been trying for so long so hard, and I only get 160 lbs. It saddens me how much more I have to go. NOT GOOD ENOUGH. Still a size 9, still 160 lbs.. Still gross, still fat. I've got so much more to go. I'm overweight. I've lost NOTHING...time to try harder than ever.
Oh, why did I set up the scale? -Lilly


Please let me think of my disgusting weight before every bite today.

~baby steps~