fat fat fat fat fat fat

<<<she barely eats at all, if she do she eats light>>>

I finally set up the scale. I was putting it off because I didn't want to see the number. And I am not happy.
160.
So fat. Fat. Fat. Fat.
I need to try harder. I need to be better. I HAVE too. Losing weight will bring me happiness, I know it will.
It's so depressing to have a number that high look back at you. How long will it take me to fix this mess I've gotten myself into?
Lord help me.

M found a new guy. M is going to meetings for anorexia and has a book for it. M is getting better.

Oh my god let me trade places with her. To be that skinny for even just a day.

Will I ever fucking get there?

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Intake:
Calories:
Breakfast- 1/2 Tea&Milk:16 cals
Lunch- Chewy Granola Bar:90 cals; Honey and Oats Granola:95 cals
Dinner- Veggie Burger:75 cals; Baby Carrots:23 cals
Exercise:
Walking,35min:139 cals burnt
100CalorieThing:100 cals burnt
Net: 60 cals

Let tomorrow and all the days to come be better than the one before.